anyone ever experience depression?

jamies98lsc

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i mean a real deep depression, not like your cat died, or something like that, i mean a seriously bad time in your life, when you just dont care about much of anything and feel like no one can help? i'm not really feeling so good lately, and i dont know if it will pass on its own or not, i feel deep inside that i am really pretty much sick of everything lately. i dont know, maybe i shouldnt have brought it up. i just wanted to see if anyone else ever felt like life totally sucks and would be better off over. i'm not suicidal so dont get that in your minds, i just think about when my time is up, like sometimes i wish it would be soon. how are we supposed to deal with crappy times? i can only take so much, i'm only human.
 
I hear ya.

I battled chronic anxiety syndrome for 15 years before I sought medical help. These illnesses bring the strongest type of denial out of people because most believe, like I did, that we can just deal with it "for one more day". That is until I got older and my body just couldn't physically take it anymore. It wasn't until it started to affect my marriage that I sought help, for my wife's sake. Taking so long to do this was a big mistake. The medications that I take (Paxil, nor-epinephrine) have made a night and day difference in my life. I feel comfortable around people, I'm getting REM sleep again, and I can use public bathrooms now - among other things. I can live.

I know depression is a different beast, but you see where I'm coming from. My advice would be to see a shrink and let him figure out what's going on. You won't regret it, and have nothing to lose.

On a sidenote, being a devout Christian is one of the things that kept me from admitting that I had an illness for so long. We believe that a lot of these afflictions are spirit-based, but I finally had to raise the white flag. I've come to realize that these can be real, physical diseases.

Hopefully someone else will chime in with their own experiences; then we'll have our first LOD therapy group. ;)
 
A LOT of people living in Florida right now are going through similar situations. The job market is bad, the real estate market is down the tubes, people are losing their homes, etc. Believe me, this has not been a good year for me. In fact, the only reason I bought my Cobra convertible is too help get my mind off other things that just aren't going right. I took a beating with real estate investments over the last two years and lost a lot of money. Now I'll be getting a dealer's license and take a shot at that business knowing full well that even that isn't very lucrative at the moment. If it comforts you any Jamie, I dont know of anyone right now that is doing well. Try to forget about the bad or at least try to push it aside and pay more attention to the things you do have and care for like your family.
 
Yes sweetie. I hit the big time depression about a year and 3 months ago. It came on gradually, building up. I can't express how horrible depression really is. It's such an emptiness. It's so painful. Anyway, I was very lucky to have hugely supportive people in my life who recognized that there was something wrong with me. My regular doctor prescribed me Cymbalta (and we have since added an anti-anxiety drug) and I saw a therapist regularly.

I saw improvement after only one week, although it took months to get back to near normal.

Get help now. Not just from us here (funny, I did that on another forum - asked if anyone else had depression to get support). Support from all angles, including others is hugely important. But really, there are a ton of drugs out there so even if one doesn't work perhaps another one will. No one knows exactly how our brains work, and IMO depression is nothing at all to be ashamed about. It's a real illness that takes a real toll on you and those around you.
 
Umm, I pesonally haven't been "depressed" but someone close to me was at one point. Let me tell you there is a big difference between I am upset and depressed... people use that term a bit to loosely.

1. She would not want to go outside.
2. She would be suicidal or have suicidal thoughts 24/7
3. No enjoyment out of anything!
4. You can't snap them out of it...

A very scary thing... after about 10 different types of meds she somehow got over it herself. Those anti depressants make ppl really wierd... and all of them make you feel different.

If you're getting on pills make sure you get a good psychiatrist. The one she had would just hand the pills out like candy:
Don't like this one... try that one, if not here is another one see if you like that!

Either way you're a guy in your 30s, and you're healthy and have a family! You shouldn't be depressed yo! Go out and do something fun, and take a bit of a break from work.
 
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If you're getting on pills make sure you get a good psychiatrist. The one she had would just hand the pills out like candy:
Don't like this one... try that one, if not here is another one see if you like that!
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This is a must. A good doctor will know exactly what is wrong and what to do about it.

I go to this little hole in the wall office where the doctor is this grouchy little 70 year old Burmese guy who speaks broken english. I keep going to him because he knows his stuff...he's been spot on every time.
 
jamie, I feel like that now and alot in the last few years, some days its hard to keep going, its so overwhelming. I hate my life, my direction and people around me, I am tired of explaining myself and tired of defending myself. Today was the worst of any days lately and its funny to see you posting similar feelings today. I hate my life today, I say that alot, but I love my kids.
 
Winter does this to a lot of people! Something about less sun. My sister aslo had same symptoms and saw a professional He got it right the first time and perscribed a drug (I don't know what). She calls it her sunshine in a pill. Most people take there own life between Thanksgiving and Wasington's b-day I've read somewhere. Really bad at holidays.
 
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I went through a slight depression about two years ago.
No suicidal thoughts just didn't like my life at all.
The things I loved doing were nothing to me.
My marrige was a wreck.
Saw alot of brain pickers found one that was great for me.
I didn't need any Meds just needed to change my life around.
I got a divorce which helped me.
Point is somthing is at the bottom of how your feeling at home or at the shop.
You should see somebody it will help and if the first one dosen't go find a different one most health Ins. will cover it.
Help is out there but you have to just feel bad enough to get it.:(
 
One thing is for sure by looking at all these posts; you are not alone!. I guess the moral here is life sucks, deal with it, lol. Maybe you just need another nice Mark VIII. :D
 
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Hopefully someone else will chime in with their own experiences; then we'll have our first LOD therapy group. ;)
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Misery loves company?

I never was sympathetic to mental conditions. My theory is if you have a brain, you have mental conditions... it's how you handle them that makes the difference.
 
alright i might as well spell it out. i dont need a shrink to tell me whats wrong, its a million things and i know every single one of them.
first, i live with my father in law and my wife's younger brother, i have for thepast 7 years, he cant live on his own he has parkinson's disease. so i hate sharing a home, thats one. two, i'm broke, and have been for way too long, soon as i see money in my hand, david copperfield makes it vanish. i owe tons of money, to credit cards, banks, you name it i owe it, i am probably in debt over 35,000, i have totally destroyed anything good with my credit, its gone, shot, which really screws me. i have nothing, i own 2 vehicles and a 27 inch tv, thats what i have. i had a truck repoed, a 4 wheeler repoed, i just owe so much but no one is getting a dime out of me. three, me and my wife dont really see each other anymore, we live together, thats it, we dont have money to go anywhere, i work in the shop all day to try and survive, she takes care of the kids, when we both have free time at night, neither one of us wants to be bothered. its just a never ending battle, 10 years ago life kicked ass, it was fun, we had money, we did all kinds of things together, now everything just blows, i'm not gonna splill my guts here, this is just a taste of things bothering me, its not the weather, its life, plus on top of owing everyone, i owe my parents all kinds of money now too. oh well. life goes on. but i dont need a shrink to tell me what i already know, if anyone asks me about it i get royally pissed and full of rage, i dont want to talk about it, yet i cant keep it in anymore. i'm also sick, my mouth is in such bad shape that its really infected, i have a mouth full of bad teeth, and no insurance to do a thing about it, i get migraine headaches all the time because of it, and now i have read that a mouth like mine can cause serious heart disease because of the infection, again, i need to take care of myself and i cant, i cant do anything, if i get hurt im screwed, but i have gotten to the point where i dont care anymore, i almost wish i would, severely not like a broken finger. i'm just fed up with my life, no shrink has to tell me that.
 
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driller said:
Misery loves company?

I never was sympathetic to mental conditions. My theory is if you have a brain, you have mental conditions... it's how you handle them that makes the difference.
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I used to think like you, until the flaws in my design began to take its toll on my body. According to the doctor, I was within weeks of having a heart attack - at the age of 30! The medications literally saved my life.

Besides JP, where does one draw the line? Is epilepsy something that folks can handle without medication? How about cerebral palsy? Are those people just wimpy? Mental retardation? They just don't have the discipline to live a normal life?

Sorry JP, can't agree with you on this one.
 
jamies98lsc said:
alright i might as well spell it out. i dont need a shrink to tell me whats wrong, its a million things and i know every single one of them.
first, i live with my father in law and my wife's younger brother, i have for thepast 7 years, he cant live on his own he has parkinson's disease. so i hate sharing a home, thats one. two, i'm broke, and have been for way too long, soon as i see money in my hand, david copperfield makes it vanish. i owe tons of money, to credit cards, banks, you name it i owe it, i am probably in debt over 35,000, i have totally destroyed anything good with my credit, its gone, shot, which really screws me. i have nothing, i own 2 vehicles and a 27 inch tv, thats what i have. i had a truck repoed, a 4 wheeler repoed, i just owe so much but no one is getting a dime out of me. three, me and my wife dont really see each other anymore, we live together, thats it, we dont have money to go anywhere, i work in the shop all day to try and survive, she takes care of the kids, when we both have free time at night, neither one of us wants to be bothered. its just a never ending battle, 10 years ago life kicked ass, it was fun, we had money, we did all kinds of things together, now everything just blows, i'm not gonna splill my guts here, this is just a taste of things bothering me, its not the weather, its life, plus on top of owing everyone, i owe my parents all kinds of money now too. oh well. life goes on.
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Let Jesus have a whack at it...couldn't hurt, right? Without Him, I'd have put a bullet in my head ten years ago.
 
jamies98lsc said:
alright i might as well spell it out. i dont need a shrink to tell me whats wrong, its a million things and i know every single one of them.
first, i live with my father in law and my wife's younger brother, i have for thepast 7 years, he cant live on his own he has parkinson's disease. so i hate sharing a home, thats one. two, i'm broke, and have been for way too long, soon as i see money in my hand, david copperfield makes it vanish. i owe tons of money, to credit cards, banks, you name it i owe it, i am probably in debt over 35,000, i have totally destroyed anything good with my credit, its gone, shot, which really screws me. i have nothing, i own 2 vehicles and a 27 inch tv, thats what i have. i had a truck repoed, a 4 wheeler repoed, i just owe so much but no one is getting a dime out of me. three, me and my wife dont really see each other anymore, we live together, thats it, we dont have money to go anywhere, i work in the shop all day to try and survive, she takes care of the kids, when we both have free time at night, neither one of us wants to be bothered. its just a never ending battle, 10 years ago life kicked ass, it was fun, we had money, we did all kinds of things together, now everything just blows, i'm not gonna splill my guts here, this is just a taste of things bothering me, its not the weather, its life, plus on top of owing everyone, i owe my parents all kinds of money now too. oh well. life goes on. but i dont need a shrink to tell me what i already know, if anyone asks me about it i get royally pissed and full of rage, i dont want to talk about it, yet i cant keep it in anymore. i'm also sick, my mouth is in such bad shape that its really infected, i have a mouth full of bad teeth, and no insurance to do a thing about it, i get migraine headaches all the time because of it, and now i have read that a mouth like mine can cause serious heart disease because of the infection, again, i need to take care of myself and i cant, i cant do anything, if i get hurt im screwed, but i have gotten to the point where i dont care anymore, i almost wish i would, severely not like a broken finger. i'm just fed up with my life, no shrink has to tell me that.
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Its a meltdown man. We all go through this at one time or another and usually it happens midlife (30's-40's). My medicine is Mr. Morgan and ice tea but its not a real answer. Like I said earlier, I am getting my dealer's license and I am starting this whole thing solo. I know I'll need some help. Up for it?. Of course you would be paid.
 
I don't think it's all about how you handle it either. It's really a medical condition. For some people drugs help significantly. I've been wondering if it's familial as my Grandma in her old age was depressed and now my dad is going through it too. And if we can't cope, or aren't using the right tools (ie, drinking instead of dealing with issues), we really do need someone to help us get our act together. And yeah, for some it's a deep religious belief.

I just can't even go back to how I was when I hit the bottom. I'd sit here and cry for no reason, and then go to bed and just lay there. I wouldn't talk to anyone, was scared to leave the house, loud noises scared me, etc. It went so far so fast, and I consider myself a pretty strong person. And just the fact that it took only one week on meds to have large improvements (for me at least) I think proves in a way that chemical imablances in our brains are real and not just imagined.

Jaime, if you don't want to talk to a therapist, talk to a friend. Also, one of the best things my therapist told me was not to overdo it. Set small goals for yourself, and be proud of yourself when you accomplish them. You didn't get to this point overnight, don't expect to get out of it overnight. Just take it day by day.

For the heathcare issues, I don't know - but are there free clinics or anything that you can go to?
 
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